7th Sem ..........

It came ...... n it went .............. leaving behind sweet memories of its existence.......... Twas The Best Semester I had so faaaar !!
SGPA of 9.7 !! I had only aimed for it ... never expected it !! Expectations give pain ......... so does love !! So I decided to ........... STAY HAPPY !!!

Coz smile on my face ...brings smile in others' :-)

A conversation

That day I met a friend …. Who was very depressed … n frustrated with life. Here iz our conversation:



Friend: “Its my life, I sud decide whats ra8 n whats wrong for me. Then why do people try to teach what to do n what not to??”

Me: “U r sure what u do is ra8 ?”

Friend: “Yes, why not ?”

Me: “How do you decide whether its ra8 or wrong ?”

Friend: “ Look I don’t have the time to think whats ra8 n whats wrong. Whatever my heart sez …… I do it”

Me: “N ur heart never forbids u to do something?”

Friend: “Umm, sometimes therez a inner feeling … a faint voice from within … I hesitate initially … but u know dat it cant last long…. N … n … I have to take a decision”

Me: “Is dat faint voice ur conscience??”

Friend: “Hey … hey … look …. Don’t trynna make me confused…. Though I am confused always ;-) Many a times its difficult to distinguish the inner voices …. U never know what to do .... whom to listen. U know what …there … eid overpowers u. After all humans make mistakes”

Me: “Haaah … dats the most common excuse people give … followed by the commonest word in this world ‘sorry’ ”

Friend: “U don’t say sorry so easily. Dat doesn’t mean dat oders sudnt !! By da way can u distinguish between ur inner voices?”

Me: “Not often”

Friend: “Then how do u decide?? Toss a coin … or what??”

Me: “I have a simple rule …… n I follow dat”

Friend: “N whats dat rule ….. O wise old man ??? ”

Me: “If U have to hide ur deed …. Its wrong !!”

Friend: “He ha ha …. What …. Then u do lots of wrong deed everyday”

Me: “Howzz dat?”

Friend: “Hey … u go to piss out n hide n do it …. U don’t show it oders rite ?? N going by ur rule …Pissing is wrong …. Hah how funny”

Me: “Whats wrong in pissing.. man … u needn’t show it …. But u can freely say that u r goin to piss off … therez nothin to hide in it dear .. so its not wrong”



Friend: “Aah … what about having sex??”
Me: “If u r having it with ur wife ….. people will b happy to know dat u both r havin a good time. Wen u do it with some1 else …. U hide it … don’t u??”

Friend: “Ok … leave the fuckin .. whats wrong in kissing ……. Why u ‘self proclaimed moral police’ object when lovers kiss each odr??”
Me: “Oh … if u wanna kiss some1…… do it openly … celebrities doo it … so does Obama !! If u do it behind bushes or in a lonely bathroom u know that its wrong …… still u hide it under da grab dat ‘its natural for lovers to kiss! C’mmon … come out of the stone age’!!!”

Friend: “Hey …. Hey … U can’t goo to ur mom n say ‘mom I love this guy … n I m gonna kiss him’ ”
Me: “If u cant ….. then wait ….. wait till u can say that!!”

Friend: “U think dats easy ??”
Me: “Ra8 things don’t always come easy !! :-)”

Friend: “Ur rule applies to all cases ??”
Me: “Most .. if not all !! :-)”

Friend: “Then even the national defence programme is wrong … its a secret .. in ur words .. hidden”
Me: “Sure it is …… when it aims to kill people, be it within the nation or in borders. Its wrong to prepare to kill some1 especially using mass destruction systems that cannot distinguish between the guilty n the innocent. Dats why they r hidden …. Even from the people of the nation … whose money is spent on it. But wen it comes to defence …. U needn’t hide it !! U show it off … do parades …. Boast of it …. If u have to b like the militants ….. hide n strike ….. then its wrong … absolutely wrong”

Friend: “Ah … there goes our neta …. Leave it … some odr time … Chay pee …. chay ”

7th Sem

It came ..... N now its gone !! It was the Best semester I ever had ..... Not just Bcoz I will cross 9 pt SGPA this sem, But bcoz I Completed the sylabus n Revised for the 1st time ....since I joined NISER !! There was quite a bit success in my projects ........ N played badminton ....... whenever I could take some time out !! I m more mature now, more equipped, n I understand Situations, People n Myself better Now!:-) This trend will continue ....... I believe ... it surely will !!!!!!!!

A habit that I wish I didn’t have

You may not believe it ..........

But I am a veeeeery angry person....

Always (Read as Mostly) unsatisfied with myself n associates.

I don't spill my anger on friends .....

But my family usually feels the heat ....

I don't like it .. I hav tried to get rid of it ....

But may b honest effort is lacking ...

May b I have taken them for granted ...

Just bcoz ..They are MINE ...Ever ... Forever !!!

The other reason cud b .. dat I dream a lot..

Thats why a close friend rightly reminded me :
"U n ur thots of future! Don't dream too much abt future! It wud b dissapointing if u dont hav dem d way u wishd to!"

These are Golden words to me .... I hav read abt them in Gita!!

But there goes the saying .."Dream Big ...if u wanna achive something big" !!

N here lies me .... CONFUSED !!

To the Limt

For years ... things have been happening ... n I have been a silent learner. A silent listener. A slow doer .... N a bold speaker .... who speaks out everything frankly and clearly.

One thing that I learnt : Its no use being bold; I need to learn to be tactic. Well .. this is a thing U need to learn from gals!! Boyz can never outbeat them in dat !! (This is without any exception).

That makes life tough as .... U cant pause it in the transformation process ... Nor r u allowed to take a looong break!

Sooo I will stretch myself TO THE LIMIT ...

Heeeha .... this has to b a slow n gradual process .... after all .... what really matters is Ur happiness !!

Njoy Ur life ... however it iz ...N if u can't ...then .. .. "Share it with me" !

P.S: Picnic iznt cancelled ..it may still b possible
(After al I hav put in the thing I value most in life : i.e. TIME )

A Perfect Day!!!

Heeeeeeeeeeee Haaa

After working like an ass for two consequtive weeks ............ It was a day off (on the account of a Conference which I didn't attend ...though I was supposed to !!)

I woke up early ... N played Badminton ...Unbelievable!!

N downloaded forms for my Di .... in the meanwhile I submitted an online form for AIPMGEE (MDS entrance exam!!)

Hmmmm ...N I also downloaded lots of reviews on CART sooooooo ... My partner wont be disgusted with me now :-)

I recharged my mob with 299pack dat allows me to talk indefinitely to my RIM mates n for 30 mins daily to other mates (read as friends) !!

Huh ..I went home ..... ate delicious food ... Talked to Di (which rarely happens)

N yes I read a lot on CART .... n prepared slides (though rough one)

N I think we can pre-pone our presentation n give a decent n clear picture of importance n role of CART in our system!

N here I am ......... To start my Labwork again !!! :-)

Njoy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today's Update # 5

Well ... the daty started with a bad note .... tHe bands on my 3rd n 4th PAGE gels .... VANISHED!!

N it was a day off!!

May b tomorrow too !!

N I started reading about CART .... which is veeeeeery boring !!

(For Picnic .... I've given the Go nod to 5 Gals n 2 Boyz of 1st Yr .....)

Why am I Blogging ?

My mind is always pre-occupied with thoughts… I have the habit of planning and re-planning things well in ahead. What I speak ….. I decide and frame it 2-3 days ahead. It consumes a lot of time though!!

And I am bored of talking to myself…. And belive me, I have tried hard to abandon this habbit .. but not with much success . That’s why I always desired of a having a friend I could share every feelings … every thoughts …. Every happenings … mis-happenings … Everything. Since my Father has such a friend, it made me feel that I can also have such a friend.

But as my Boss sez “Life is Hard” ; and so it will always be !! Such a friend is difficult to find. When I don’t have time to talk back to my Family once in two-three days, who the hell and why the hell will someone have time for talking to me?? I was very sad thinking how long will I have to wait for him/her !

And then…… Blogging came to my rescue!! Hence I am blogging ….. (Who knows …. It may help me out someday … in Gajini style !!)

I may not remain forever …. But these Blogs will !!

Today's update #4

Hi!!
Today was the Great day.....
I learnt to cast n run PAGe ...

Results r not yet confirmed ...since we need a suitable marker!!

Lets see what turns up in Western ...

Ok till then ......... I will wait n see!!

(OOps!! forgot to add ..the bus for picnic iz really a gooooooood one ... non-AC-45 seater-2/2 Pushback with audio-video facility ...dat means couples "read as family" can sit together in tranquility as many (about 10 ) seats will still b vacant!!

Happy Picnic

Only thing remaining iz to fix the menu ..negotiate it n book 3-4 more rooms at any of hotels ot Gopalpur . ......... ummm..n to collect the rest money for our batch's last picnic !!)

A Great Day!!!!!!!

It was a great day for me !!

Firstly, I slept for 9 hrs ….. which is very rare ….. and then I went to class!!

Though my friends thot that I had bunked class to read for neurobio class ( I bunk classes only to read)
Actually I had bunked to Dream!!

I dreamt of finishing my labwork in early in the afternoon ( I usually work till 11 pm)

I dreamt of riding my father’s bike ( My father doesn,t have a bike nor can I drive a geared vehicle)

I dreamt of visiting NISER’s chemistry lab (which I haven’t since 1st yr)

I dreamt dat Ved gave a demo of SEM (SCS wont ever have a SEM … N ved cant be expected to show an intact SEM)

Altough I reached class I entered Ecology class ..thinking today is Wednesday (But today is Wednesday …that doesn’t mean that my new Avtar is an advanced version!!).

Though I missed a quiz… I didn’t get surprised (A I really wanted sir to take a surprise quiz)
And for the 1st time, sir defended me for being unable to make competent cells in the early days!!

He has shown faith in me … I wont disappoint him !!

Tomorrow iz a BIG DAY !! :-)

Todays update #3

Well, it was a hectic day today....but I am relaxed now..... since bookings for rooms annd bus have been done .

Besides I think tomorrow I will get TRPV1 protein for biochemical assays!!

Good Luck

This is the reason ..why U sud have friends ..Good Friends ...Lots of Them !!!

Arranging a Picnic !!

Picnic ....... A very exciting thing ..... Rite??

May b!!

But not for the Organizers.

As if the last time experience with friends and faculties were not enuf....

I plunged in again into the same pool....

(Hope of seeing smiles on my dear ones' face lured me ..though)

But people will never change ... will never b understanding (except for some).

They will never understand that they can hurt some1 by their words.

They will never realize how much brainwork , time, labour is spent in organising it. And I am not here to profit or to take good name.

But they can't be blamed...

Thats human nature.....

And I have committed one of the greatest mistakes of my life!

** I hereby PROMISE that I will never be a part of organizing group for any departmental picnic in future.

I just wish that this time everything goes on smoothly. Afterall .. this is the last time!! May it b the Best Time for all !!

(As I have changed), Those who try to hurt me.... will get its reflection instantly!!

A Wasteful Day !!

What a wasteful day this was .....

A Rubbish Eco Trip....

Long walks ... n walks ...n walks .....

Without any reason ...destination...

Walk on and on .....

Ufff !! thank God, we r back home (hostel)!!

Even though we reached OTDC office ....

Bookings couldn't b done ....

Twas a wasteful day ... really a wasteful day ...

Thanks to Bha... ;-)

Todays Update #2

The product has been amplified ....

Boss said " It appears to b right 1"

Prepare Glycerol Stock...

Next time onwards don't waste time in transforming....

Directly amplify

N express ....

Everything will b all rite ...Haan !!

Its gonna b olrite hen !!

Dissapointment

It occurs often ....

Time and Again......

Yup Yup ...

Sob Sob ....

Terrible state ....

Bad fate .....

Unluckiest moment....

Disappointment .....

Today's Update #1

By the way ..............

I forgot to add.......

I HAVE FINALLY MADE COMPETENT DE3 CELLS !!

the best part is ...... Subhru iz going to give me a treat for it !!

Yupeee ...... I have done it !!

Now Subhru will think thrice before making any statement (Just like I Do!!)

Cheers.....

Much more Good NEWS coming soon......

Pressing On ......

I am always in the habit of pressing things on people (say friends n family).

It may be irritating .... but so it is!!

But am I always Right?

That can't be..... Rite??

Still I press it on ....

Try with full force to make people accept my line of thinking....

Try hard ... harder .... till I realize ITS ENUF !!

Sometimes I think I may b wrong....

But I try hard ..don't get enuf reasons to support it....

There iz a simple reason for it,

I never claim I am always right...

But wont believe I am wrong until U prove it !!

** The secret is Revealed:

*Rakesh wont stop by ur protests ... U need to prove him wrong !!!

Tough Job ahead ..so go on ...go on .... till u r breathless ................................................

How Does it Feel ?

Ever Wondered .....

How does it feel ......

When U realize the World is round??



From the point U Started.....

The Distance Covered .....

The Image Created .....

Gets Distorted !!


So Easily ....

So Rapidly.....

Ol of a Sudden ....

N leave U pain-ridden !!



A Subject of Ridicule....

An Object of Neglect....

Prove U In-Competent....

How does it feel.....

When 3 month's work ...

Is Autoclaved??

No data collected ....

No Gels stored !!


How does it feel ...

Really Frustrated??

Nops!!

Its All about ...

Getting Started .....

Again ....

Lately .... Finally !!

For a Change

Seems ..... some feel I have changed !!

Frankly, Dat reminds me of dis:
"Don’t be so humble - you are not that great."

It further reminds me
"Never do something to others;
Which you don't want others to do to you"

But does that means U have to be treated the way u like??
Well, dats simply not possibe:

"Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian."

Dat might confuse and anger u a bit .... But


How important your feelings are .... iz a relative concept.

What I would suggest is that:

"In order to keep a true perspective of one’s importance, everyone should have a dog that will worship him and a cat that will ignore him."

That will keep you on the floor....... Besides projecting you as a animal lover !!

A deeper insight may suggest a clever excuse (which I have refuted in my earlier blog) :

"For there is nothing either good or bad, thinking makes it so."

However, one has to maintain one's personality, reputation, figure and the like ......

"I don't know the key to success but I know the key to failure is trying to please everybody."

Pleasing everybody is the only thing that God can't do.

However, if I have hurt some1, which I think I haven't, I would say just 1 thing:

What I would not like to be on Rebirth :

For those who don’t believe in rebirth, its fine …. Even I don’t believe in it. But given a choice to opt out, I would choose not to be born as a Woman.

Surprising ????

But I have reasons for it:

While we sit under the fan, who sweats in the kitchen? Its mom: a woman. While we sit down to eat, who serves us food? Its mom/wife: a woman. When it’s a fesival, who makes the delicacies? The woman. While we change clothes one after another, who washes them out? Its again a woman. While any family member is angry/sad who is most disturbed? The woman. When it comes about family, who makes the most sacrifices? The woman. When anything goes wrong, who iz blamed? The woman. Who is under constant threat from her own gender? The Woman.

The world may change, but whose world will never change? The Woman’s. The world will remain a dangerous place to live in … for a Woman …. ever ……. forever …..

Dey needn't b verbal ... but r touchy:

Words ……. Not only are they expression of emotions …….. but are also sources of Inspiration.

Today … I would share with you my invaluable treasure ….. Some of the most precious messages in my Inbox:

*

True friendship is not leaving behind old friends

When you find new 1s;

Its all about preserving dried rose between pages

Inspite of being gifted a rose daily.

*

The person who tries to keep every1 happy

Iz always the most lonely person;

So never leave them

Bcoz they will never say they need U.

*

The most critical moments in life:

When some1 very special hurts U so deeply,

Causes tears in Ur eyes and asks

“What happened?”

But U simply reply :

“Nothing”!

*

Life runs on two golden rules: “Accept’ and “Change”

“Accept” the things which U cannot “change”.

“Change” the things which U cannot “accept” !!

*

Do not count what u hav lost.

Just see what u hav now,

Bcoz past never comes back

But sometimes future can give u back

Ur lost things !!

*

U never get a person of ur type in dis world,

U hav to either adjust or compromise.

Adjust when som1 wants to be with u;

Compromise when u want to with som1 !!

** Now dat appears to b the safest thing to do!!

Words....

"Sticks and stones break bones;
Words Change relationships"

Indeed they do !!
For a long time I have been giving too much importance to Words..... its somehow in my genes.

Whever I say something , I regard it as a statement ... a word which has to be kept. Whenever someone says me something ... it gets imprinted on my mind ...never to get erased (at most "masked" sometimes .. for sometime).

But there iz an extent to everything (probably).
Where to draw the borderline, becomes a critical decision to take.
I can stick to this yardstick..... but I need to maintain some flexibility.
Nature of the yardstick ... is yet to be determined !!
Until then the suffering n stiffening goes on and on ........

A MonDay

As the 10-day vacations got over, it was time to return back……

At home, my family was busy at early pranayam session……..

Though Maa offered to make tea… I turned down the offer saying “I will take tea from the tea stall outside” …. Maa replied “If you are taking tea outside nowadays …. then its fine”.


Still she made tea while I was taking bath n I gladly had it with biscuits…… N then walked to continue my current target: “Protein Expression”.

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As I walked into the canteen, the manager called me and said “Where did you and your friends go this Friday? Please don’t do this again. I kept waiting for you till 2pm and wasted Rs 136 worth stuff. I request you …please don’t come here to eat…. I don’t want this to happen all over again.”

I could do nothing …but just smile and return to my friends……


Couldn’t say even “Sorry” …… since it iz still a “Too Heavy Word for Me” !!

This reminded me of a few things :

The Manager had laid faith in me that I would definitely turn up with my friends for lunch and not let the food , his labor n investment go waste ….. I couldn’t live up to it Just bcoz I was lazy enuf to inform my friends on time N had preferred to attend to the Stopwatch set for my project at Cuttack !!

Maa’s words: “If you are taking tea outside nowadays …. then its fine” indeed referred to my earlier statement that I would never take tea outside home.

My words can nowadays not be trusted

My statements cannot be relied upon;

As promises made by me remain unkept

I realize that this sud no longer go on.

Its time for me to change

I sudn’t let myself adjust;

Before it goes out of range

I have to restore in me : “Trust”.


But the day didn’t go so disappointing … as “I have finally learnt the art of putting up a False Smile”……..

The Pics say it all ....

Dreams r the bricks that r still to be baked .......


Life is a canvass that iz to b coloured ....


Ur eyes r the 1s "That say it All " .....


Love iz something dat matters ...after all .....



However hard U try ... it often doesn't stay on hold ....



Worlds-Most-Beautiful-and-Painful-Sentences :



The only option left iz to :

Afterall dese are the cherished moments of life ......


After all :


U gotta remember :





And follow dis above all :

Right n Wrong :

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Very often we are confused between what is Right n what iz Wrong ...


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We get really confused .......



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Which way to choose ????


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Dat upsets us ... depresses us ..N moreover "Supresses us' ...


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N we take whatever route we can ..... N den "Shit happens " :



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Then we try to ask our conscience :::

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But the easiest way iz:
"Whatever we have to do hidingly is Wrong "



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Dat brings in happiness...

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N guaranteed satisfaction ..... If followed strictly !!